Why the hell did I do that?
I don’t understand how I could have thought it was a good idea to bid on a 31-foot class A RV. 
Why was my thinking so far off? I liked the huge front windshield looking over everyone with a clear view ahead, and it looks really nice inside, roomy..32 feet. But it left out any information of the inner workings, the motor, the tires, generator, battery. so much left out should have been a cautionary note that I missed.
I’ve been looking for a rig of about 20 feet or less so I can feel confident in my ability to drive it.
I know this.
Yet I bid $9,200 or so and no one outbid me. I’m trying to understand what prompted me to make a bid when the item was impossible for me to drive and I am not ready to start living in an RV. My sister says it reminds her of when I called her to tell her I’d shaved my head. I had to live with that for a long time., and it still gets referenced. They think I’m goofy but I was taking Ambien at the time and one does strange things in their sleep while under its influence.
Could this new life adventure, living full time in a van be another goofiness? I’m not taking medication that would account for any goofiness.
But as I think about this I remember another time when my behavior could have been the result of medication…which I still take. The literature noted that one could have unusual behavior and could take risks or start gambling I was very sensual and even inappropriate, but to be very honest I had a great time, to the embarrassment of some. Nothing wrong with a 65 year old woman feeling sensual lI’ll remember those days with fondness and without embarrassment.) and a little sad that time has past.
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