Lots to tell you!

The studio is sold, I’ll believe it when it rolls away but a young couple is getting the money together as I write this now, they expect to take it not far from here and live in it! I put it on Facebook and have had about ten calls for it, I didn’t expect it, it’s really a good deal for them and a relief for me.

Sold my car too! I need to wait for the title to arrive and fix a small brake issue this week, do my errands then call the buyer to come to pick it up.

Monday I have an appointment to get GG ready for travel, pick up my art at the gallery and off we go to Adkins Texas, 10 hours driving to finally meet my man Richard.

No worries, he has been vetted by friends and family and especially me and comes out true, honest and thoroughly lovable. I’ll have a good space to work on my brushstrokes and won’t miss my studio at all.

We’ll drive up to meet my family in Dallas area, I’ll fly to the wedding in South Carolina ,and return to Dallas and finally home to Adkins with either my sis or son to meet my new Home Sweet Home. We are so excited about these new possibilities!

Getting rid of my stuff has been a joy, I’ve never felt so light and free of the weight of Stuff. Giving it all away brings a smile to the face of both the receiver and me, hoping I’ll be remembered as a generous friend not easily forgotten…plus I wrote cards with my new address on them!

JP has been a great help to me during these days, surprised? All good, forgiven and forgotten, he filled up his dumpster with my junk saving me a dozen trips to town with trash. And shared a few glasses of wine and conversation. I’ve made friends and met some fine people while living here and hope we keep in touch, of course I’ve invited them all to visit!

High Winds in Caballo

We have to batten down the hatches as they say, because stuff is going to blow around today and for the next three days, but it’s warm and sunny and I’m so glad it’s not cold. In Chinese medicine it’s referred to as pernicious wind because of everything in the unhealthy air we breath, a mask would not be a bad idea. Today driving into town with the car window cracked I past some work being finished up on the highway and they’ve put something green on the ground that smells strong enough that it bothered my throat passing by it. I wonder what it is,Weed kill I suspect I wonder if the workers were protected applying it. The roads look great.

Colorado man should be here next week, he hasn’t been dismayed by my suspicions and has valid explanations for my concerns so I’ll be glad to see him. I’m not enthusiastic about continuing this search for the perfect man, maybe he’ll find me, I’m still on the site but distances are long and I’m busy living right now right here, one possibility has quit looking which is too bad as I enjoyed his writing and another says to let him know if Colorado man turns out to be an ass hole. Sweet!

This problem I have with Charley is really my problem I admit that I am sometimes a little lazy about keeping him on his leash for his morning dash across the street to pee. Usually he will run out pee and run back because he wants to share our morning ensure, chocolate regular not extra protein cuz we don’t like it, and go back to bed in my bed under the blankets to sleep a bit longer. But today he bolted out before I could get out to monitor the activity and didn’t come back for 10-15 minutes. I wasn’t going to get dressed and go looking for him he always comes home when he’s done something where he shouldn’t and CJ will have spotted him, Not good! So he finally appears all happy ready for sharing our ensure but surprise no ensure for Charley today! I don’t suppose he can relate that as consequences to his disappearance. I let his sleep in my bed and he was still up there when I got back from town asleep at noon.

Update Colorado man arrives late tomorrow night hungry.

Empathy is the antidote to shame

Beene Brown

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I may have been too harsh

I hope so.

Time will tell, but what I think is bothering me is that although these 3 years in GG have been fine, I don’t think this is how I want to live for the rest of my days. I’d like some comforts. I’d like a nice bathroom with a big tub to soak in, I’d like to cook on more than one burner at a time. Life in an rv for a single woman is never really comfortable. What happens when I can’t climb up to my bed? I had an uncontrolled slide down the other day with bruises from my ankle to my knee, no real harm done and I have to just be careful but I’m at my “prime” now, how will I manage in a few more years? This causes me hesitation to accept a continuation of this life style, and I may have other options. I need to be open to other options, I am open to other options.

I’m sorry if I caused embarrassment or pain to my Colorado man who does plan to come here. It was his plan to move out of the cold and in talking decided he would move here so I don’t feel he has lost anything even if we don’t make plans together.

It has been beautiful today, but I’ve hardly been out, busy cleaning organizing and I made a big pot of vegetable soup that I will be eating for days.

I am sorry about the obnoxious ads you see here but I can write for free with them so that’s the way I’m going for now.

My sister needs to have her head shaved for some tests, I think I’ll shave mine in solidarity and hope my grey comes in without the silver fluff I’m seeing and can do nothing with., I’ll leave a bit around my face perhaps so it doesnt look too odd, but I see women all the time that shave their head and are happy with it. I’ve done it before, I wear a ball cap often so I won’t look much different.

Obviously I have nothing new to add here so I’ll just stop right here, and look for a photo to add.

on-line dating

So many lonely people is what I see on the dating site. lonely old men, from 68 to 85, most are in their 75+ range. I did see one man I could have liked to know at 85 but he is in Georgia, a retired judge, we agreed the distance was unfortunate .

The good guys don’t live in New Mexico! That is probably true, it’s a beautiful but poor state full of artists and government employees. The closest location of the men I’ve viewed are men in Arizona playing golf..

Now that I think of it, why didn’t I do this while I lived in the DC area or the Dallas area where distances would have mattered less and there would have been more available men? Because it never crossed my mind! That’s just like me too late for the party!

I think about friends from my Panama years, some I worked with everyday are gone, yet here am I wondering what’s next and if this is what’s next. I’m not one to plan far ahead but honestly I’m pretty satisfied with how things are for me right now, but I question if this will be a satisfactory long term plan for me,a 79 year old woman with limited resources and good health.

I guess this is what I’ll be writing about now. I check to see if there’s anyone new on my list of available men and see if anyone has answered or written me a note, I wonder about those personality tests and how some seem compatible when I definitely don’t think we would be. There is one that is super high so I wrote to ask him, why he thought that could be but he hasn’t answered me so maybe not?

It was a Hesitant half step into dating and a quick back step out

He doesn’t like dogs! I mean he really doesn’t like dogs, he dislikes them more than he wants to get to know me. Thank goodness I wrote about Charley so We realized this before any more time passed. I hope he finds who he is looking for soon. As for me, I’m sorry for anyone who dislikes dogs, and I’m pretty sure my readers would agree that one has to wonder why, but I don’t think that would be our only problem, he seemed pretty rigid, doubt he’d think my life style acceptable. I gave him this web address and I’m sorry I gave it to him.

Oh well, life goes on here in Caballo

Problem today is that my hose is not working because it’s stuffed full of green slimy algae like stuff…but it’s not the hose, I’ve had this problem before and was able to fix it then, now I’m not too sure.

Fixed it, for now, yup, the filter was full of this stuff, maybe with this super hose it won’t keep happening. I do use a brita for drinking water.

Sunny today, but chilly

I took my plants out to enjoy a few rays and spent some time in the studio with my man Bocelli on amazon , and walked with Charleykins to the dog park. I may take a nap, its unlikly but I wish I could be a nap taker, I could use the extra sleep.

Just got an email from Elite telling me my account was never deleted, which is different from” your account has been deleted” so I guess I have 6 months to find my “soulmate”.

Something to think about, there’s a lot of old men out there, lonely people looking for a companion. Not sure there is room in my life, I would have to be swept off my feet to give up this paradise I’m living! I would have to be treasured and taken care of, not be someone ‘s nurse. Which at this point is what old men are looking for, not to be cynical it can be hard accepting reality.

But a few years with a good man might not be so bad, could I finally become a we instead of just a me?

Hmmmm

Back home for some time now

But haven’t been in the mood to get started here again. As a matter of fact I’ll close my account and continue using my free account so soon my blog will be just tailgateart-othon.wordpress.com or something similar.

The trip was good, GG was excellent until I left the lights on and the battery died. I was at my sons place in Plano Tx and he took care of it for me and got me a new battery after AAA wasn’t able to jump it

Oh a note about AAA.. I had an account with them for both my car and RV. I found out when I got home and checked my mail that they had terminated my account of both because I live full time in my RV…which I told them when applying for coverage. Did you hear that…I found this out when I got home, I drove GG all the way home without knowing I had no coverage!!!

And the insurance agent never returned my calls

So angry

Except for that and poor Charley hating and shaking every time I started up the motor the trip was good, we slept in truck stops and once at Walmart, no problems, just a very long ride

And I think, no I know I almost killed Charley. Because he is so nervous I wanted to sedate him a little to make it easier on him…and me too. So I got Benadryl liquid and a syringe to shoot it in his mouth. Unfortunately some got down the wrong way and he aspirated some of it. He started wheezing and struggling to breath, it was awful. This lasted about an hour while I’m trying to massage and clap on his lungs not being sure where exactly I should clap and my sister is googling what to do in case of aspiration. Somehow he pulled out of it and another hour later we hit the rode going home. Next time a pill

is the only way I’ll try again…oh he was not sedated at all by ingesting Benadryl

It’s cold in Caballo tonight, it’s going to freeze which reminds me I have to remove the water hose from the RV so nothings breaks. I’ve brought all plants inside and they have taken over the cab, I’ll add a photo, they love it up there, the geraniums are flowering as never before, I mist them and water them when dry

The cab florist

I’ve got iffy wifi so the pic might not happen today. My hot spot keeps dropping

GG’s New Mexico fashion update

I just invited some facebook RV groups to stop by to check out GG’s new look.

I need to say that my photos do not do her justice, but we are very happy with whats happening on the outside as well as on the inside. I’ve removed and replaced all her inserts(don’t know what they are called) but she looks much cleaner and well cared for and it wasn’t too difficult for me as I could change many of them from the roof, which by the way the repair done a few weeks ago look great. It was a simple job that if I’d had the product they used I could have done it myself. The fact that I had not electric on one side of the RV was almost too simple and was restored with the touch of a button, most embarrassing, you know what I mean? And when she had enough gas applied the generator worked fine too.

I’m waiting on Amazon for a few more items to complete her look, did you notice her new poster on the side, a new carpet for the step, new painting on the side that I’m not real happy about but it’s okay for a hippy person like me.Inside it really just new fabrics because we are in New Mexico and plan to stay here for a long time. And i love color. I miss my Indian fabrics a bit but can change back any time and probably will cuz they look so exotic and make me feel like I’m in a harem of one.

I’m adding a couple photos now that I’ve added before for any new readers interested just in GG

Trip didn’t happen

I was convinced to not move the RV until Chip the RV guy checked it out and I’d also checked my tires. So I just got another 2 gallons of gas plus a friend added a bit more so when I tried the generator having a quarter tank of gas, she started! I bought a filer and oil for the generator but don’t have the tools I’d need to change the oil myself. so when I go to town I’ll get that done plus an oil change for the truck as well. Next is to resolve my roof problems. My poor Gigi has been neglected but now I’m determined to be a better owner to avoid costly problems that prevent travel. I guess I’ll travel into town once a month to keep things functional. At least that’s what is suggested I do. I’m thinking about selling art from Gigi now and then in town.

Hot Spot or a Contract?

High-speed internet is now available in Caballo

I added this notice in my birthday card to the park owner, CJ. Not sure it was appreciated.

Lots of my neighbors use their hot spot when the wifi is out, or do their internet ting late at night using available wifi. I’m wondering if it’s safer to use your hot spot than local wifi. I’m using Verizon prepay plan and am not sure how much data I’m allowed but I suppose when I run out I just start over. Suppose I should find out but sometimes it’s better to avoid going into the Verizon store ( in t or c) although last time I did I was pleasantly surprised and found a better plan than I was on and added the hot spot. Afraid they’ll take it away or say that program isn’t available now. Maybe I’ll use the hot spot this month instead of the faulty wifi and see what it costs me.

Or get my own contract for HighSpeed Internet like most regular people do? What do you think?

Remember the reason I get poor wifi is because of larger RVs parked in front of me blocking the signal.

The equipment I bought to improve my wifi was a waste of money and time and now I can’t even find the needed item. I must have put it in the trash because it is nowhere in the RV, not on purpose, amazing how things get lost in this small space probably because there are so many small hidden spaces.

Busy days. I threw down everything that was in the loft except my bed. It was like a hurricane of clothes and blankets and “stuff I meant to send to my girls or take with me the next time I travelled Since I moved up there to sleep I’m sharing space with all my winter clothes and blankets, linens and more. I found a new place to keep my sewing machine under the bench plus space for papers and books and so now my sleep space feels free of so much “stuff”. Really who needs 5 pairs of sweat pants? I have music up here now too. Woohoo, living the good life!

I’ll be so happy when this makers market is over. I’m certain I’ll be left with a dozen oval pours unsold and what to do with them. I spent so much time and $ on them and I really don’t like many of them. Gallery lady thinks she can sell them for $60, I doubt those without resin will sell for $20. I just finished the last five ovals and done.that’s it, back to painting,

I have this image everywhere, my bus cards,my phone,my website, time to paint something new