I’m being more assertive on line

Instead of sending just a smile, which I’m told most men ignore because they get dozens or more a day, I say something like “ I like your profile and see we are rated highly compatible, what do you think, check mine” or something I specifically like about their profile. I usually only smile or write to those living in the state, unless something strikes me as interesting in AZ.

I have some interesting connections but they may read here so unless they turn out badly for any reason you won’t read about them here.

I’m serious about this and don’t want too much more time to pass solita. My feet are itchy to progress, but with caution, I guess my run-in with CO man has prompted me to look around myself and wonder if this enough, just me by myself forever?

And I know it is not enough, I’ve said it before, I’m not done yet, who knows, my best years may be about to begin! I’m keeping that positive thought because that’s how it happens!

I just read an article about how to know if someone is truthful and trustworthy. Okay, it was a medium article, but it described myCO guy in so many ways and there were so many red flags I didn’t see. I should copy that article and reread it a few times to not get Involved with that type of narcissistic personality again. Innocently me! They can be so charming, can you believe we almost sold my car for a motorcycle he loves! ( ok, I agreed it would be fun, two old foggies on the bike) But I couldn’t afford it even selling my car, saved again by lack of funds, who says it’s a problem being poor? You notice who couldn’t do the affording?

Ok, I’m done won’t mention him again, out of of my system, maybe I just had to get mad to get over the whole situation, if so I thank the one who wrote that medium article whoever it was and however I came to it just when I was ready to read it. Funny how things like that just happen when you need it! Intuition?

Intuition, I just finished listening to a 5 day seminar on intuition, some fascinating information sorry I missed some of the sessions but will be investigating this further, who knows maybe I can learn something new, that’s not new but ancient knowledge and not woowooo at all.

Still working on painting my clouds but with this new plan I’ll need to get busy sorting through the accumulation of three years of stuff.

Sin mas

I feel sexy when I wear hoop but these make feel a little silly, what say u?

SMILE

Played my first Wordal game today got it in 4 of the six try’s for cloth. Have you tried it yet? I like it, you only get to play once daily and apparently it has gained popularity real fast with people bragging their daily successes ( like I just did!)

I made it to Number 1 top winner braindoku, but now that I’ve won I doubt I’ll keep playing, no more challenge, unless someone over takes me, really for a challenge?

Well, the man from Colorado almost made it here last night, he’s about 90 miles away. The man is an flake. I hate to tell you what has stopped him, but you can’t go far without gas in the tank and money in your pocket. He is a flake, I have on occasion been a bit flaky myself, and I recognize the similarities, but you know what happens when you add flakes together, a Storm happens! The consequences of his delay are that he lost his spot in the park and I’m thinking that may not been a negative thing, and me thinking that, is another consequence

I’m just watching all this, no drama, he’ll find another spot somewhere if he ever leaves the gas station where he’s parked now. I feel sorry for him and all the troubles he has found himself in but he stays upbeat and not much frazzled as anyone might be. I guess it’s all in your attitude towards what life throws at you. I just have to smile a little.

He did achieve getting out of the Cold and the Snow , let’s see if he likes the Wind better.

Obstáculos

High Winds in Caballo

We have to batten down the hatches as they say, because stuff is going to blow around today and for the next three days, but it’s warm and sunny and I’m so glad it’s not cold. In Chinese medicine it’s referred to as pernicious wind because of everything in the unhealthy air we breath, a mask would not be a bad idea. Today driving into town with the car window cracked I past some work being finished up on the highway and they’ve put something green on the ground that smells strong enough that it bothered my throat passing by it. I wonder what it is,Weed kill I suspect I wonder if the workers were protected applying it. The roads look great.

Colorado man should be here next week, he hasn’t been dismayed by my suspicions and has valid explanations for my concerns so I’ll be glad to see him. I’m not enthusiastic about continuing this search for the perfect man, maybe he’ll find me, I’m still on the site but distances are long and I’m busy living right now right here, one possibility has quit looking which is too bad as I enjoyed his writing and another says to let him know if Colorado man turns out to be an ass hole. Sweet!

This problem I have with Charley is really my problem I admit that I am sometimes a little lazy about keeping him on his leash for his morning dash across the street to pee. Usually he will run out pee and run back because he wants to share our morning ensure, chocolate regular not extra protein cuz we don’t like it, and go back to bed in my bed under the blankets to sleep a bit longer. But today he bolted out before I could get out to monitor the activity and didn’t come back for 10-15 minutes. I wasn’t going to get dressed and go looking for him he always comes home when he’s done something where he shouldn’t and CJ will have spotted him, Not good! So he finally appears all happy ready for sharing our ensure but surprise no ensure for Charley today! I don’t suppose he can relate that as consequences to his disappearance. I let his sleep in my bed and he was still up there when I got back from town asleep at noon.

Update Colorado man arrives late tomorrow night hungry.

Empathy is the antidote to shame

Beene Brown

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I may have been too harsh

I hope so.

Time will tell, but what I think is bothering me is that although these 3 years in GG have been fine, I don’t think this is how I want to live for the rest of my days. I’d like some comforts. I’d like a nice bathroom with a big tub to soak in, I’d like to cook on more than one burner at a time. Life in an rv for a single woman is never really comfortable. What happens when I can’t climb up to my bed? I had an uncontrolled slide down the other day with bruises from my ankle to my knee, no real harm done and I have to just be careful but I’m at my “prime” now, how will I manage in a few more years? This causes me hesitation to accept a continuation of this life style, and I may have other options. I need to be open to other options, I am open to other options.

I’m sorry if I caused embarrassment or pain to my Colorado man who does plan to come here. It was his plan to move out of the cold and in talking decided he would move here so I don’t feel he has lost anything even if we don’t make plans together.

It has been beautiful today, but I’ve hardly been out, busy cleaning organizing and I made a big pot of vegetable soup that I will be eating for days.

I am sorry about the obnoxious ads you see here but I can write for free with them so that’s the way I’m going for now.

My sister needs to have her head shaved for some tests, I think I’ll shave mine in solidarity and hope my grey comes in without the silver fluff I’m seeing and can do nothing with., I’ll leave a bit around my face perhaps so it doesnt look too odd, but I see women all the time that shave their head and are happy with it. I’ve done it before, I wear a ball cap often so I won’t look much different.

Obviously I have nothing new to add here so I’ll just stop right here, and look for a photo to add.

It was a Hesitant half step into dating and a quick back step out

He doesn’t like dogs! I mean he really doesn’t like dogs, he dislikes them more than he wants to get to know me. Thank goodness I wrote about Charley so We realized this before any more time passed. I hope he finds who he is looking for soon. As for me, I’m sorry for anyone who dislikes dogs, and I’m pretty sure my readers would agree that one has to wonder why, but I don’t think that would be our only problem, he seemed pretty rigid, doubt he’d think my life style acceptable. I gave him this web address and I’m sorry I gave it to him.

Oh well, life goes on here in Caballo

Problem today is that my hose is not working because it’s stuffed full of green slimy algae like stuff…but it’s not the hose, I’ve had this problem before and was able to fix it then, now I’m not too sure.

Fixed it, for now, yup, the filter was full of this stuff, maybe with this super hose it won’t keep happening. I do use a brita for drinking water.

Sunny today, but chilly

I took my plants out to enjoy a few rays and spent some time in the studio with my man Bocelli on amazon , and walked with Charleykins to the dog park. I may take a nap, its unlikly but I wish I could be a nap taker, I could use the extra sleep.

Just got an email from Elite telling me my account was never deleted, which is different from” your account has been deleted” so I guess I have 6 months to find my “soulmate”.

Something to think about, there’s a lot of old men out there, lonely people looking for a companion. Not sure there is room in my life, I would have to be swept off my feet to give up this paradise I’m living! I would have to be treasured and taken care of, not be someone ‘s nurse. Which at this point is what old men are looking for, not to be cynical it can be hard accepting reality.

But a few years with a good man might not be so bad, could I finally become a we instead of just a me?

Hmmmm

Hot Spot or a Contract?

High-speed internet is now available in Caballo

I added this notice in my birthday card to the park owner, CJ. Not sure it was appreciated.

Lots of my neighbors use their hot spot when the wifi is out, or do their internet ting late at night using available wifi. I’m wondering if it’s safer to use your hot spot than local wifi. I’m using Verizon prepay plan and am not sure how much data I’m allowed but I suppose when I run out I just start over. Suppose I should find out but sometimes it’s better to avoid going into the Verizon store ( in t or c) although last time I did I was pleasantly surprised and found a better plan than I was on and added the hot spot. Afraid they’ll take it away or say that program isn’t available now. Maybe I’ll use the hot spot this month instead of the faulty wifi and see what it costs me.

Or get my own contract for HighSpeed Internet like most regular people do? What do you think?

Remember the reason I get poor wifi is because of larger RVs parked in front of me blocking the signal.

The equipment I bought to improve my wifi was a waste of money and time and now I can’t even find the needed item. I must have put it in the trash because it is nowhere in the RV, not on purpose, amazing how things get lost in this small space probably because there are so many small hidden spaces.

Busy days. I threw down everything that was in the loft except my bed. It was like a hurricane of clothes and blankets and “stuff I meant to send to my girls or take with me the next time I travelled Since I moved up there to sleep I’m sharing space with all my winter clothes and blankets, linens and more. I found a new place to keep my sewing machine under the bench plus space for papers and books and so now my sleep space feels free of so much “stuff”. Really who needs 5 pairs of sweat pants? I have music up here now too. Woohoo, living the good life!

I’ll be so happy when this makers market is over. I’m certain I’ll be left with a dozen oval pours unsold and what to do with them. I spent so much time and $ on them and I really don’t like many of them. Gallery lady thinks she can sell them for $60, I doubt those without resin will sell for $20. I just finished the last five ovals and done.that’s it, back to painting,

I have this image everywhere, my bus cards,my phone,my website, time to paint something new

WIFI Hell

What am incredibly frustrating day. from 2 bars to no bars and back to hot spot to wifi to 0 bars and on and on. and on.

Why do I bother?

I just want to make a simple website for my art. A place I can put on a business card that isn’t my blog. Not everything I write on here is what I want to share with someone I want to do business with.

But during this frustrating day I found an old blog from 2016 called tears and laughter. Reading it turned out to be of mostly tears, not much laughter but it was a good thing to read and to realize that I’m past that person and on to being happier healthier and certainly saner. But nervertheless I thought I’d pass the blog on because what I wrote wasn’t bad, it had feeling and I added some of the posts I hadn’t finished or published because they have truth. Not sure why I need to share these thoughts, I guess just because they were part of me then.

Sunday is the Makers Market. I think I have everything ready. It’s like starting over again, taking my stuff to market, it’s a hassle I’m not sure I want to pursue but I’ll do it this time to see about all these oval pours I’ve made. I put resin on them, for my last time using resin though I did get a pretty impressive respirator to use but I don’t think it’s worth my health to get that mirror shine………..which I had not been getting here.

Who is Kate Othón?

I should probably explain. I am Kate Othon in New Mexico, Kathy Othon everywhere else, silly I suppose but I’ve gotten used to being called Kate here in the park it just grew to the post office and beyond! So now on my business cards I’m Kate Othón. I like it. Officially I’m Kathleen and my sig is just kothon

I painted a colorful painting that I thought would look really nice in the little cafe near here but the owner wasn’t interested, she had just painted her walls and she didn’t want anything on them. Her loss. We talked about a mural on the store wall but now one of the friends that would help do the painting is leaving and now I have less enthusiasm plus it’s very hot still, maybe when she comes back we can do it.

I’ve been busy getting ready for a “Makers Market” next weekend. It will be the first one in T or C, hopefully there will be a good turnout but a storm is in the forecast. I’ll take all these oval pour paintings that I covered with resin but don’t like much. Not doing any more resin work, it seems to trigger my IC, and now even spray varnish does the same. I’ve ordered a better respirator but probably shouldn’t use these chemicals any more, I’ve hypersensitive to them now.

I’m wondering about a web site for Kate. I want to be able to direct people to the art and not this more personal blog. Something to put on my cards to show work that I’ve done and where prints can be bought.I don’t want to spend much, keep it simple and stylish. Maybe my daughter will help me get it set up though I do like to do things for myself it takes me so long and I forget what I’ve done and what needs to be done. yeah, the forgetting thing, always a problem. that and procrastination, my major faults these days.

We’ve had some noisy weather here in Caballo, wind, thunder and lightening but not a lot of rain, the other night it got so loud poor Charley was scared and wanted to come sleep with me. As I now sleep in my chamber above the cab he hasn’t been interested in sleeping up there but now he was scared and wanted up. His sad little face I saw when I looked over the edge made me smile and I grabbed for him but it was a hit or miss situation , could I just lean over and lift him up or would I drop him? If he’d weighed another pound he would have been dropped but he made it up, we were both relieved and although he was closer to the noise now he fell asleep.

The next morning I went up to check my roof to see if my shower liner was still intact. It need some fixing but was in good shape. I felt so powerful being able to do this myself. You’ll note that I am wearing a skinny little top that no 78 year old woman should be seen in but it was hot and no one here cares but I won’t wear it again, unless I do. I’ve been working on strengthening, see those arms!

This morning I woke up too early but thought I should do laundry now and so I got it together and drove 15 miles to a modern laundromat in Hatch, the chili capital of the world, they also have a nice hardware store I’d rather go to than Walmart and I needed some stakes to hold done the tent I was borrowing for the market so I got to do laundry and get the stakes and was home again before 9. Sometimes I use my little washing machine but sometimes I need to do sheets and towels and then I go to a laundromat.

My glasses disappeared which was no great loss and made me stop procrastinating about getting glasses. Since loosing them I’d been wearing Walmart readers 3+ which I could walk around in but not read, they were just not powerful enough to read. A friend told me she ordered some readers on amazon and I should check there for stronger readers.I did and ordered two pairs of 4+ and they sent me 5+ which is okay because now I can REALLY read well with them.

But I saw where you could get progressives to wear all the time for $30 and thought wow if they work I’d save a bunch instead of getting new rx glasses. So I ordered them and I love them and will not bother to spend $300+ on new glasses again. they are perfect and came with a blue light tester and repair kit. I’m happy with them even though I look a little silly in these big glasses.

Cheers!

Catching Up

Haven’t written for awhile, don’t know why, just busy living I suppose.

I have a leak in my RV roof, haven’t been able to find anyone to help me fix it so I did the next best thing and did it myself.

I didn’t think I could get up to the roof but found I could climb that ladder and it wasn’t as hard as I thought, or scary. Wish I’d gotten a picture to scare my kids with but no-one was around. I used a shower liner and some special tape to hold it down, so far so good, no leak. More permanent fix is needed and the ceiling inside the rv one area should be replaced but now is covered with fabric I am a make-do champion.

My garden has had a really rough time this year, too much heat and wind, I lost everything I had in pots but the garden may recover if we stop having 100 +degree days. I have them shaded with a plastic tablecloth in hopes of survival. last year my flowers did better but the garden worse harvesting only a couple small vegetable………….things, Tomorrow it will be 100.

I’ve been painting using the pour style, what a mess.

I thought I’d quit doing it because you waste so much paint. You must make multiple cups of paint that must be about the same viscosity, then dump them into another cup layering the paint and then use one of several different methods of adding it to a canvas or your choice of substrates and spin it until you like the effect, while the paint splashes everywhere.

I thought to quit making this mess but I had lunch with some friends at a small cafe near here and noticed a large empty wall. I thought that maybe they would like some art for their walls This is a very small community cafe that did well during the pandemic with take out and has been able to freshen up their cafe. I went to find out and found it closed for a short vacation but the store next door, which I though was owned by the same family was open and I asked the owner about it. He is not the owner of the cafe but said I could paint a mural on his outside wall. Hmmm why not? Maybe when it cools down a bit might be fun.

Anyway I had these paintings in my car and was headed into town for groceries and thought I’d stop at the gallery to see what she thought of these poured paintings, though I said I didn’t think they were gallery material.

She loved them! She wanted to buy one of them immediately ! So I left her with 7 oval paintings. Personally I don’t like them so much but other people seem to so I guess I’ll make some more. They don’t photograph well to add here, they are actually pretty cool, you can see what you want to see, the earth, the seas, creation, if you don’t like it one way you can just turn it. I could only find photos of these ,I made 8 and today made 4 more, she wants to sell them for $70, I said okay because they are sold in a gallery, but I would ask for just 35 myself! They are a lot of work, messy messy work!

End of story now I don’t have anything to offer the cafe……yet.

My voice mail was full,

I didn’t know how to empty it until a friend said she called herself to empty it and so I called myself

40 messages waiting to be heard.

I listened to messages sent a year ago. Sorry!

What does one do to apologize after all this time?

There were no junk messages just family and friends trying to say Hello.

and I wonder why no one calls me!

My voice mail is squeaky clean now

call me.