Onward, to the next chapters of my life

Opening new chapters in your life can both scary and exhilarating. So do you chose to be scared or chose exhilaration? it’s either the dumbest thing I’ve ever done or the smartest, I chose to be exhilarated.

My studio is up for sale and when I finally get it cleared out it will be gone. My art supplies, except for my good paints and a few things, go to a friend’s granddaughter, a budding artist. Everything else must go as I have promises that on the other end of my travel there is a studio being prepared for me with new supplies as needed

PINCH Me!

This time frame is getting close, once the studio and my car are sold, nothing really keeps me here..except to gift some stuff to friends .Rather than tow my car in a trailer ($1200) I’m selling it and will look for a car in Tx

We haven’t met face to face yet!

that was supposed to happen when I went to Dallas in late September , now we agreed that a face to face is not necessary because we’ve shared so much already, he reads here so you know he knows all of me! It’s a nine hour drive from here to there, longer in the rv. I am keeping GG, my security belt, if all does not turn out as we expect, I’ll keep on keeping on traveling light.

time is passing, and we want to enjoy the time we have, we’re both in good health, mutually open to this new style finding a partner, feeling fortunate we found each other. He is my trophy dude.

I should probably thank Colorado man for dumping me! He made me want more. More love, more companionship be part of a couple again, so although it was painful at first, and stupid secondly, I wouldn’t have met mr. wonderful or have the opportunities available to me now.

Keep me in your thoughts and send good vibes this way, please and thanks!

Change your thoughts, Change your life

Sin mas

Tomatoes, squash and basil

I have high hopes for the future

Change your thoughts, change your life.

I’m doing a lot of positive thinking these days because I sense change is in my future. Positive change if I can trust and believe all I’m told, it’s what’s written on the wind, its a gust of fresh air and a new rainbow in the eastern sky. Okay I don’t know where that came from! I did see a rainbow this morning!

A new opportunity presents itself, I’m ready for change, I’ve closed one door for another to open. But it depends on so many factors I’m not in charge of so I can only be myself and hope that I can share the life of another free spirit chosen for me.

My plans change from day to day, I know what I want to happen, I want to be in love and be loved again truly and trusting and honestly. I’m ready to turn the page and start fresh with a new plan for my future hopefully not alone but if alone ready to create a new page in my diary always learning something new about myself and this world I’ve created. Something I just read…

If you are looking for someone to change your future, look in the mirror!

I’m looking deeply into other states of mind, intuition, astrology and even ordered some tarot cards which I won’t know what to do with, just opening my mind to other realities without censoring anything looking more closely to see if I’ve missed something useful, some unexpected knowledge that might benefit me or someone else.

Zacbushmd.com/blog, this man was recommended by CO man and is the best thing Ive gotten from him, besides fixing electrical gadgets, I highly recommend this blog to inform yourself about the state of our world and humanity. And what can be done to save us from a dying off of our planet earth.

Sin mas

Probably not a great idea but

To let a new (possible) friend read here. What do you think? Could scare a good man away before I even get to know him.

Im not a complicated woman but I am very frank and open about a lot of things many would criticize me for….and do, it’s not their way but it’s my way to deal with my life, this is my story and I have lto tell it, it’s not an exciting story there are no deep secrets in the life of this lady, no shockers, that I loved and lost is not shocking that I tell about it here should not shock anyone, it’s what saves me. I’ll talk it until it’s a dead boring subject and then I’ll be left with only the good memorias.

Besides it’s a quick way to tell if I would be compatible with someone and they with me before a lot of time passes, I’m not for just anyone, we know that! Wish me safe travels it’s a bumpy road.

Last night I was cleaning my paint palette scraping off the old paint and thought what a reference that is to my life shedding the old constraints looking forward to the future and where it takes me.

SMILE

Played my first Wordal game today got it in 4 of the six try’s for cloth. Have you tried it yet? I like it, you only get to play once daily and apparently it has gained popularity real fast with people bragging their daily successes ( like I just did!)

I made it to Number 1 top winner braindoku, but now that I’ve won I doubt I’ll keep playing, no more challenge, unless someone over takes me, really for a challenge?

Well, the man from Colorado almost made it here last night, he’s about 90 miles away. The man is an flake. I hate to tell you what has stopped him, but you can’t go far without gas in the tank and money in your pocket. He is a flake, I have on occasion been a bit flaky myself, and I recognize the similarities, but you know what happens when you add flakes together, a Storm happens! The consequences of his delay are that he lost his spot in the park and I’m thinking that may not been a negative thing, and me thinking that, is another consequence

I’m just watching all this, no drama, he’ll find another spot somewhere if he ever leaves the gas station where he’s parked now. I feel sorry for him and all the troubles he has found himself in but he stays upbeat and not much frazzled as anyone might be. I guess it’s all in your attitude towards what life throws at you. I just have to smile a little.

He did achieve getting out of the Cold and the Snow , let’s see if he likes the Wind better.

Obstáculos

High Winds in Caballo

We have to batten down the hatches as they say, because stuff is going to blow around today and for the next three days, but it’s warm and sunny and I’m so glad it’s not cold. In Chinese medicine it’s referred to as pernicious wind because of everything in the unhealthy air we breath, a mask would not be a bad idea. Today driving into town with the car window cracked I past some work being finished up on the highway and they’ve put something green on the ground that smells strong enough that it bothered my throat passing by it. I wonder what it is,Weed kill I suspect I wonder if the workers were protected applying it. The roads look great.

Colorado man should be here next week, he hasn’t been dismayed by my suspicions and has valid explanations for my concerns so I’ll be glad to see him. I’m not enthusiastic about continuing this search for the perfect man, maybe he’ll find me, I’m still on the site but distances are long and I’m busy living right now right here, one possibility has quit looking which is too bad as I enjoyed his writing and another says to let him know if Colorado man turns out to be an ass hole. Sweet!

This problem I have with Charley is really my problem I admit that I am sometimes a little lazy about keeping him on his leash for his morning dash across the street to pee. Usually he will run out pee and run back because he wants to share our morning ensure, chocolate regular not extra protein cuz we don’t like it, and go back to bed in my bed under the blankets to sleep a bit longer. But today he bolted out before I could get out to monitor the activity and didn’t come back for 10-15 minutes. I wasn’t going to get dressed and go looking for him he always comes home when he’s done something where he shouldn’t and CJ will have spotted him, Not good! So he finally appears all happy ready for sharing our ensure but surprise no ensure for Charley today! I don’t suppose he can relate that as consequences to his disappearance. I let his sleep in my bed and he was still up there when I got back from town asleep at noon.

Update Colorado man arrives late tomorrow night hungry.

Empathy is the antidote to shame

Beene Brown

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I may have been too harsh

I hope so.

Time will tell, but what I think is bothering me is that although these 3 years in GG have been fine, I don’t think this is how I want to live for the rest of my days. I’d like some comforts. I’d like a nice bathroom with a big tub to soak in, I’d like to cook on more than one burner at a time. Life in an rv for a single woman is never really comfortable. What happens when I can’t climb up to my bed? I had an uncontrolled slide down the other day with bruises from my ankle to my knee, no real harm done and I have to just be careful but I’m at my “prime” now, how will I manage in a few more years? This causes me hesitation to accept a continuation of this life style, and I may have other options. I need to be open to other options, I am open to other options.

I’m sorry if I caused embarrassment or pain to my Colorado man who does plan to come here. It was his plan to move out of the cold and in talking decided he would move here so I don’t feel he has lost anything even if we don’t make plans together.

It has been beautiful today, but I’ve hardly been out, busy cleaning organizing and I made a big pot of vegetable soup that I will be eating for days.

I am sorry about the obnoxious ads you see here but I can write for free with them so that’s the way I’m going for now.

My sister needs to have her head shaved for some tests, I think I’ll shave mine in solidarity and hope my grey comes in without the silver fluff I’m seeing and can do nothing with., I’ll leave a bit around my face perhaps so it doesnt look too odd, but I see women all the time that shave their head and are happy with it. I’ve done it before, I wear a ball cap often so I won’t look much different.

Obviously I have nothing new to add here so I’ll just stop right here, and look for a photo to add.

on-line dating

So many lonely people is what I see on the dating site. lonely old men, from 68 to 85, most are in their 75+ range. I did see one man I could have liked to know at 85 but he is in Georgia, a retired judge, we agreed the distance was unfortunate .

The good guys don’t live in New Mexico! That is probably true, it’s a beautiful but poor state full of artists and government employees. The closest location of the men I’ve viewed are men in Arizona playing golf..

Now that I think of it, why didn’t I do this while I lived in the DC area or the Dallas area where distances would have mattered less and there would have been more available men? Because it never crossed my mind! That’s just like me too late for the party!

I think about friends from my Panama years, some I worked with everyday are gone, yet here am I wondering what’s next and if this is what’s next. I’m not one to plan far ahead but honestly I’m pretty satisfied with how things are for me right now, but I question if this will be a satisfactory long term plan for me,a 79 year old woman with limited resources and good health.

I guess this is what I’ll be writing about now. I check to see if there’s anyone new on my list of available men and see if anyone has answered or written me a note, I wonder about those personality tests and how some seem compatible when I definitely don’t think we would be. There is one that is super high so I wrote to ask him, why he thought that could be but he hasn’t answered me so maybe not?

It was a Hesitant half step into dating and a quick back step out

He doesn’t like dogs! I mean he really doesn’t like dogs, he dislikes them more than he wants to get to know me. Thank goodness I wrote about Charley so We realized this before any more time passed. I hope he finds who he is looking for soon. As for me, I’m sorry for anyone who dislikes dogs, and I’m pretty sure my readers would agree that one has to wonder why, but I don’t think that would be our only problem, he seemed pretty rigid, doubt he’d think my life style acceptable. I gave him this web address and I’m sorry I gave it to him.

Oh well, life goes on here in Caballo

Problem today is that my hose is not working because it’s stuffed full of green slimy algae like stuff…but it’s not the hose, I’ve had this problem before and was able to fix it then, now I’m not too sure.

Fixed it, for now, yup, the filter was full of this stuff, maybe with this super hose it won’t keep happening. I do use a brita for drinking water.

Sunny today, but chilly

I took my plants out to enjoy a few rays and spent some time in the studio with my man Bocelli on amazon , and walked with Charleykins to the dog park. I may take a nap, its unlikly but I wish I could be a nap taker, I could use the extra sleep.

Just got an email from Elite telling me my account was never deleted, which is different from” your account has been deleted” so I guess I have 6 months to find my “soulmate”.

Something to think about, there’s a lot of old men out there, lonely people looking for a companion. Not sure there is room in my life, I would have to be swept off my feet to give up this paradise I’m living! I would have to be treasured and taken care of, not be someone ‘s nurse. Which at this point is what old men are looking for, not to be cynical it can be hard accepting reality.

But a few years with a good man might not be so bad, could I finally become a we instead of just a me?

Hmmmm

Who is Kate Othón?

I should probably explain. I am Kate Othon in New Mexico, Kathy Othon everywhere else, silly I suppose but I’ve gotten used to being called Kate here in the park it just grew to the post office and beyond! So now on my business cards I’m Kate Othón. I like it. Officially I’m Kathleen and my sig is just kothon

I painted a colorful painting that I thought would look really nice in the little cafe near here but the owner wasn’t interested, she had just painted her walls and she didn’t want anything on them. Her loss. We talked about a mural on the store wall but now one of the friends that would help do the painting is leaving and now I have less enthusiasm plus it’s very hot still, maybe when she comes back we can do it.

I’ve been busy getting ready for a “Makers Market” next weekend. It will be the first one in T or C, hopefully there will be a good turnout but a storm is in the forecast. I’ll take all these oval pour paintings that I covered with resin but don’t like much. Not doing any more resin work, it seems to trigger my IC, and now even spray varnish does the same. I’ve ordered a better respirator but probably shouldn’t use these chemicals any more, I’ve hypersensitive to them now.

I’m wondering about a web site for Kate. I want to be able to direct people to the art and not this more personal blog. Something to put on my cards to show work that I’ve done and where prints can be bought.I don’t want to spend much, keep it simple and stylish. Maybe my daughter will help me get it set up though I do like to do things for myself it takes me so long and I forget what I’ve done and what needs to be done. yeah, the forgetting thing, always a problem. that and procrastination, my major faults these days.

We’ve had some noisy weather here in Caballo, wind, thunder and lightening but not a lot of rain, the other night it got so loud poor Charley was scared and wanted to come sleep with me. As I now sleep in my chamber above the cab he hasn’t been interested in sleeping up there but now he was scared and wanted up. His sad little face I saw when I looked over the edge made me smile and I grabbed for him but it was a hit or miss situation , could I just lean over and lift him up or would I drop him? If he’d weighed another pound he would have been dropped but he made it up, we were both relieved and although he was closer to the noise now he fell asleep.

The next morning I went up to check my roof to see if my shower liner was still intact. It need some fixing but was in good shape. I felt so powerful being able to do this myself. You’ll note that I am wearing a skinny little top that no 78 year old woman should be seen in but it was hot and no one here cares but I won’t wear it again, unless I do. I’ve been working on strengthening, see those arms!

This morning I woke up too early but thought I should do laundry now and so I got it together and drove 15 miles to a modern laundromat in Hatch, the chili capital of the world, they also have a nice hardware store I’d rather go to than Walmart and I needed some stakes to hold done the tent I was borrowing for the market so I got to do laundry and get the stakes and was home again before 9. Sometimes I use my little washing machine but sometimes I need to do sheets and towels and then I go to a laundromat.

My glasses disappeared which was no great loss and made me stop procrastinating about getting glasses. Since loosing them I’d been wearing Walmart readers 3+ which I could walk around in but not read, they were just not powerful enough to read. A friend told me she ordered some readers on amazon and I should check there for stronger readers.I did and ordered two pairs of 4+ and they sent me 5+ which is okay because now I can REALLY read well with them.

But I saw where you could get progressives to wear all the time for $30 and thought wow if they work I’d save a bunch instead of getting new rx glasses. So I ordered them and I love them and will not bother to spend $300+ on new glasses again. they are perfect and came with a blue light tester and repair kit. I’m happy with them even though I look a little silly in these big glasses.

Cheers!