SMILE

Played my first Wordal game today got it in 4 of the six try’s for cloth. Have you tried it yet? I like it, you only get to play once daily and apparently it has gained popularity real fast with people bragging their daily successes ( like I just did!)

I made it to Number 1 top winner braindoku, but now that I’ve won I doubt I’ll keep playing, no more challenge, unless someone over takes me, really for a challenge?

Well, the man from Colorado almost made it here last night, he’s about 90 miles away. The man is an flake. I hate to tell you what has stopped him, but you can’t go far without gas in the tank and money in your pocket. He is a flake, I have on occasion been a bit flaky myself, and I recognize the similarities, but you know what happens when you add flakes together, a Storm happens! The consequences of his delay are that he lost his spot in the park and I’m thinking that may not been a negative thing, and me thinking that, is another consequence

I’m just watching all this, no drama, he’ll find another spot somewhere if he ever leaves the gas station where he’s parked now. I feel sorry for him and all the troubles he has found himself in but he stays upbeat and not much frazzled as anyone might be. I guess it’s all in your attitude towards what life throws at you. I just have to smile a little.

He did achieve getting out of the Cold and the Snow , let’s see if he likes the Wind better.

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High Winds in Caballo

We have to batten down the hatches as they say, because stuff is going to blow around today and for the next three days, but it’s warm and sunny and I’m so glad it’s not cold. In Chinese medicine it’s referred to as pernicious wind because of everything in the unhealthy air we breath, a mask would not be a bad idea. Today driving into town with the car window cracked I past some work being finished up on the highway and they’ve put something green on the ground that smells strong enough that it bothered my throat passing by it. I wonder what it is,Weed kill I suspect I wonder if the workers were protected applying it. The roads look great.

Colorado man should be here next week, he hasn’t been dismayed by my suspicions and has valid explanations for my concerns so I’ll be glad to see him. I’m not enthusiastic about continuing this search for the perfect man, maybe he’ll find me, I’m still on the site but distances are long and I’m busy living right now right here, one possibility has quit looking which is too bad as I enjoyed his writing and another says to let him know if Colorado man turns out to be an ass hole. Sweet!

This problem I have with Charley is really my problem I admit that I am sometimes a little lazy about keeping him on his leash for his morning dash across the street to pee. Usually he will run out pee and run back because he wants to share our morning ensure, chocolate regular not extra protein cuz we don’t like it, and go back to bed in my bed under the blankets to sleep a bit longer. But today he bolted out before I could get out to monitor the activity and didn’t come back for 10-15 minutes. I wasn’t going to get dressed and go looking for him he always comes home when he’s done something where he shouldn’t and CJ will have spotted him, Not good! So he finally appears all happy ready for sharing our ensure but surprise no ensure for Charley today! I don’t suppose he can relate that as consequences to his disappearance. I let his sleep in my bed and he was still up there when I got back from town asleep at noon.

Update Colorado man arrives late tomorrow night hungry.

Empathy is the antidote to shame

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Interesting Feedback & Thanks

An offer of a place to live for as long as I wish by a friend and advice to engage another female to share expenses by another.

But, I’m not just looking for a house to live in with all the usual appliances.

I want the whole package!

I want to love and be worshiped, isn’t that what everywoman wants really?

A house is only a small part of ones life unless you worship it instead of your relationship, There are some gorgeous rv’s out there where I could cook on four burners and sleep on a bed I don’t have to jump up to to get in and glide down.

So the comfort I’m looking for is not that hard to find, it’s the right man that is hard to find but truly if all I wanted was a house there are plenty of men golfing in Arizona looking for someone like me.

But I want it all the whole package, love and lust, creativity and harmony and lots of fun, and soon! Because you know, I’m getting older every year, and eventually I will have less to offer a man.

I don’t want just any man, I want a man who feels lucky to find me.I don’t know, maybe he’s from Colorado?

Have I shown you this painting? I’m hanging it on my neighbors shed that blocks my view of the mountains so when I walk out of my rv instead of a white shed I see my mountains, I may add some Spring leaves when I actually see some around here. Winter lasts much too long, I long for Spring.

This is what happens longing for Spring, I call it Spring fever but it’s not finished and aready doesn’t look like this, I’ve sanded it so all the other marks I’ve made here show. I thought to add peace symbols here and there, appropriate for our times.

I may have been too harsh

I hope so.

Time will tell, but what I think is bothering me is that although these 3 years in GG have been fine, I don’t think this is how I want to live for the rest of my days. I’d like some comforts. I’d like a nice bathroom with a big tub to soak in, I’d like to cook on more than one burner at a time. Life in an rv for a single woman is never really comfortable. What happens when I can’t climb up to my bed? I had an uncontrolled slide down the other day with bruises from my ankle to my knee, no real harm done and I have to just be careful but I’m at my “prime” now, how will I manage in a few more years? This causes me hesitation to accept a continuation of this life style, and I may have other options. I need to be open to other options, I am open to other options.

I’m sorry if I caused embarrassment or pain to my Colorado man who does plan to come here. It was his plan to move out of the cold and in talking decided he would move here so I don’t feel he has lost anything even if we don’t make plans together.

It has been beautiful today, but I’ve hardly been out, busy cleaning organizing and I made a big pot of vegetable soup that I will be eating for days.

I am sorry about the obnoxious ads you see here but I can write for free with them so that’s the way I’m going for now.

My sister needs to have her head shaved for some tests, I think I’ll shave mine in solidarity and hope my grey comes in without the silver fluff I’m seeing and can do nothing with., I’ll leave a bit around my face perhaps so it doesnt look too odd, but I see women all the time that shave their head and are happy with it. I’ve done it before, I wear a ball cap often so I won’t look much different.

Obviously I have nothing new to add here so I’ll just stop right here, and look for a photo to add.

Mola table I sent to Hawaii

Duped?

I feel like I’ve been taken for a foolish woman, if you read here regularly you know I am referring to my online dating experience.

At least I have not been asked for money, but money is the issue, or lack of it. He has had one problem after another in his attempts to arrive here to Caballo and I’m not sure his coming here is a good idea if he has trouble paying his way, Even his photos are not really honest as a recent photo shows an unkept man with a comb over and messy beard. My photos were taken when I joined, I have wrinkled skin there is no doubt that I am 79 and looks are not too important when the rest of the story is up front and honest.We never discussed finances, maybe we should so he would know that I have enough for me and Charley and that is all I’ll ever have so he needs to be able to take care of his own finances. He has talked about buying different trucks and campers but I haven’t seen any evidence that he has actually bought anything as the pics are all from internet sources.

My daughter thinks I am too trusting.Perhaps I am. He is very articulate, educated and sent me flowers, I guess that doesn’t mean he is honest, or has good intentions, he has a good story, is it just a story? How does one know if it’s just his story?

What really upsets me is how I let this anxiety affect how I physically feel. I have pain for no good reason other than this anxiety I’m feeling and that makes me mad.

Now I have mistrust and suspicions not a good start for a relationship I’m not sure I want.

I’m sure he will not be happy to read this. He tells me he has a friend to give him money so he will be coming later maybe, I think he should forget about it and try with some one else and I’ll keep looking for an honest man

I don’t know how to make this photo smaller but this is untouched and without makeup me..

Cold And Windy in Caballo

Having trouble getting motivated in my small space.

The wind swept my carpets clean and blew my umbrella over.

I can’t wait for Spring.

I’m waiting for my Colorado man who will be coming soon and plans to live right here in my RV Park. Will it be awkward? I don’t think so but I suppose it could be only if we expect too much too fast. It will be nice to get out and do stuff together, did I tell you he sent flowers on Valentine’s Day and a card for my birthday? Very attentive and a sweet man, I hope we feel a mutual attraction that we both feel and enjoy, a cuddle would be nice. I’ve never kissed anyone while I have my denture, will that be awkward? Any advice? I don’t know if he has dentures. Can two denture -d mouths comfortably kiss? Getting ahead of myself!

And what if we just don’t like each other after all, what if we don’t like each other’s scent or how we chew our food or dress or cook. Or we just are not compatible Somehow I don’t think it will be a problem because we can just go on being ourselves living close by as friends or moving on and go back to our lists of faces in hopes of finding that someone to fill that empty space around us. I know he is interested in travel and wasn’t able to get the vehicle he planned to get so travel may not be a priority for now I guess we’ll figure it out, I’ll need to keep GG, she is my security, my quiet space, my retreat if or when needed.

Meanwhile I’ve stocked up my pantry bought plenty fruits and veggies I’ll look for recipes and organize my spaces while I wait to meet this new person in my life, at the very least he’ll be a friend at most he’ll be a lover, what more could an old lady want?

Is it a Conundrum?

When you aren’t sure of the proper response? When you have to make choices you should not have to make? What is the kindest response? Or should you just let it go and see what happens?

Yup, its the dating thing, with responses from more than one man. One I almost know, one I’d like to know more and one close enough to get to know. So what to do? Maybe doing nothing is the answer for now. Sit back and let whatever happens for the best, we’re all in the same condition of not knowing who and where our future rests.

Flowers & cards for Valentines day shows a pretty strong interest from one and I know he will arrive one day as he wants to move out of the cold and thinks Caballo NM might be where he wants to live at least part-time. He may be moving a bit too fast for me.

But time is moving in a quick-step and tomorrow I’ll be 79. I’m pretty contented as I am, not even sure I need change or am able to let another person into my life, I guess I’ll find out, maybe.

glorious amaryllis bloom

a conundrum is a situation where there is no clear right answer or no good solution.

Back to painting after a lapse

I haven’t felt like painting for awhile, probably because the studio feels cold even though I can turn on the heat. It feels cold that’s not a physical cold more of a psychological cold, difficult to get started because the days are cold and dreary, no plants or flowers nothing but a plant of kale in the garden., But my plants inside the RV look like they will survive the winter and even flourish so I’ll have a head start when Spring finally makes her way to Caballo.

Today I went to pick up a few essentials at Walmart and the seeds are in!,!! When I checked out the woman says “ looks like you’ll have a beautiful garden ,” I bought too many seeds, mostly flowers because I want lots of flowers. Vegetables I’ll buy the plants when they arrive. Last years garden was pretty good for veggies not so good for flowers because of the heat. I need to devise a system of afternoon shade for them this year. Waiting for the ground to not freeze so I can plant. Winter is my least favorite month living in an RV, it gets hard to find what to do in this small space, too easy to do nothing.

I’m still on that dating app, interesting but confusing because of distances. I can’t meet someone for coffee because they are mostly from a different state or more than 60 miles away, few are from NM.

Most of the men are from Arizona or Colorado, a good distance away and they are as old as I am and less likely to travel this far to meet someone they don’t know, same for me.

But there is one man willing to do that and he is coming next week, not only to see me but because he wants to get out of the cold and snow and thinks he’d like to move here. And he’ll be here for my birthday. I’m feeling a little pressure, not sure how this will go.

Also I haven’t met or conversed any other men and there about 60 more men on my page some of whom I might like to meet or correspond with, It feels awkward, because one man takes up my time and assumes too much. He is a very nice man, I think, but I don’t know and there are a lot of men who are not really nice and my daughter says I’m too trusting. I can’t be otherwise, life is too short.

Doña Aleida Othòn de Rodriguez 29octubre 1926-24 de enero 2022

An Elegant Dama, to me she was more than a sister-in-law. She was a friend when a friend was needed, she was kind to a young girl lost in a new place not always friendly, we were unable to communicate freely but she was able to bridge the gap and made me feel welcome and part of her family.

She will be remembered for more than her famous arroz con pollo, her holiday ron ponche, and Christmas would not have been Christmas without her holiday table always beautifully set in her exquisite style. She was an gracious artist of her life, with flowers around her where ever she lived, she had a way with her that made life flourish around her.

I regret not having spent more time with her, I wish I could have spent the month in Panama with her when invited, the time was wrong, then never right and now too late. Her presence will be missed by many, her large family, close and far.