So the ac is on early today, with my little fan I don’t need to use the ac at night, but the afternoons are very hot which means I can only exercise my brain not my body. I haven’t had the energy to get up very early to walk and later I don’t even let Charlie out because I think it’s too hot for his feet, when he has to go, he runs fast, pees and races home.
Yesterday I sat outside with my “wind fan” and umbrella until afternoon cleaning up all the tiles I took down from inside, I’m thinking to cover them with alcohol inks. That was a fun project I’ll make again and take them to a new shop in town that opened up recently. I’ll need to order new alcohol inks and make or order some stickers and backs for the tiles, a fun project.
I have a large canvas that I’m painting clouds, just clouds, I think it’s the fourth painting I’ve done on this canvas, maybe the last, the cloud formations in this monsoons season are spectacular! so far what I have on my canvas is not!
What are your thoughts about astrology? I’ve been trying to understand what happened between JP and I by looking deeply at myself. I had my chart made and have 6 months worth of help to understand myself at least.
I’m also taking a couple courses in writing daily to ‘unlock my inner self’ and am going to use a journal to write in instead of pouring out my angst here. Privately writing I won’t care how many misspelled words and grammatical errors I make! True I don’t try real hard here
Not sure how helpful this will be to me but I’m trying to understand myself. Of course he may have been just be fickle…..a fluke…..a false friend, a fake or just a complicated man who changed his mind, it will be difficult for me to find a man who will understand my life and not see me as a ‘trailer trash ‘ without options. I feel like they may not see me as an educated woman who chose this lifestyle and is basically happy living it. He understood, or seemed to, maybe not.