it’s over, we loved for 3 months

It’s over, it wAs good, we loved each other for 3 months. I don’t regret any of the time spent together but it wasn’t working for so many reasons, none of which seemed insurmountable to me. We could have worked through them, but he’s taking what must be to him the easy way out and leaving me.

I guess his love for me was not too strong, that he would give up without even a discussion, well he would have but I insisted he had to talk to me, to tell me what happened , why , when…and his response is almost not worth telling, but tells me his love was superfluous, words only spoken not felt. I wish him the best and hope he gets his life together, when it does he’ll find another love, hopefully that lasts longer than 3 months. I wonder how long his other “loves” have lasted (except his marriage lasted some 20 years)

He has a complicated history. Which could explain some issues, I’m not judging him, he was too easy to love until he wasn’t, and yet I feel compassion and some broken fragments of love remain against my best judgment , I’d like to remain friends but I doubt he will bother to keep in touch , so sad, I’m so sad for him.

of course if I had written here yesterday while in distress this would not have been so understanding, I was pissed grande and deeply unhappy and the tone would have been very different. But I am an adult and can monitor my behavior after the fact if not before.

I was pretty happy before all this transpired maybe I’m just in love with the idea of loving again, of having a trusted and loving partner, I think I still have some time left at the couples site and may take another look, why not I don’t regret the time spent on it., I’m sad it’s over, really sad.sex was nice, really nice, cuddling was wonderful .

How long does it take to get over a brief romance, I’m doing fine except when suddenly tears fill my eyes but I keep on keeping on.

I’m redecorating GG with gray paints and wallpaper, many changes happening in my small life.

Sin mas

2 thoughts on “it’s over, we loved for 3 months

  1. Sorry it’s over. Hang in there, you’ll find the Gold amongst the dross. Glad to hear your perspective has more clarity than earlier yesterday..

    Peace Joy and Happiness
    Gail

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  2. I.know you don’t like to use the phone. So here I go.
    I’ve been thinking about you, and how your dealing with being alone.
    I can only say how I would of felt, pissed off, disappointed, and not really surprised.
    I didn’t think he was in this for the long haul, just my own personal opinion.
    I’m sorry that you don’t have someone to cuddle with, or share your thoughts with.
    That’s what I miss most.
    We all hit problems along he way.
    , you are an intelligent Lady with much to offer, so take you time, tend your garden, give your pup lots of love, and then make a decision, or not !!!!
    Love you dear friend.

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